Looking back at my last entry, it's so satisfying to be in an internal and physical space that is miles away from where I was when I wrote that post. It's very rewarding to know I've done that for myself and am continuing to do so!Since that post, I've gotten myself a little job out …
Category: Real Life
Ughhhh
Maybe it's something about the summer, but I feel like my entire body and brain have just given up on everything and I'm dragging myself along resolutely like a tired parent in the grocery store with a petulant screaming child. It's the part of things where I feel zero motivation, zero impetus, zero interest in …
*dust dust*
Well, uh...hi! I'm back, I think. Trauma definitely has a way of stunting everything you want to accomplish in life, doesn't it? There were a lot of life changes that were squeezed into that absence of mine, and maybe someday I will reveal them in flashback-style life lesson type moments. Or maybe I'll just let …
State of the Me
I suppose honesty time is well overdue in this quarter of my life. There's a lot to sort out and put in this place or that, but writing it all out in the mishmash that I seem to specialize in certainly helps me feel less burdened, if nothing else. Apologies for the circles everyone's about …
Head Above Water, Kid.
I keep intending to write fiction stuff on this blog. You know, the usual fanciful stuff that no one will really read but is really self-indulgent good fun. I could definitely use a dose of escapism right about now. However, it seems like the only words that want to come out are words about my …
The Struggle is Real. Like, really real.
Hello, friends. I've been struggling lately. I've been struggling with emotions, with my depression, with the usual familiar demons Comparison and Not Feeling Like I'm Enough. The best part about these two is that they feed off of each other perfectly like some sort of shitty ouroboros. "Wow, I'm terrible. I bet no one else …
Things that change
As of today I haven't had any fast food for five months. In that time I've lost close to forty pounds, though I still have a lot to go. I'm trying to take small steps so that I don't get discouraged by how long this is taking. I am definitely a product of this instant …
What’s Here Right Now
A week ago today, I lost my mom. The few days before it happened and the week since have been indescribably difficult. It's like getting repeatedly punched in the face by emotions in some sort of street brawl. The emotions will pummel you all at once at first, just hitting and kicking any vulnerable spot …
Brushin’ Off the Dust
Woo, it's been a little while, hasn't it? Recently I've been grappling with something that always seems to be lurking in the ring, ready for me to grapple with it. Emotional eating. I used to think to myself "I don't emotionally eat! I eat when I'm hungry, that's it." I was not very in tune …
Everything in moderation. You know, for some people
I am all about moderation in things. Nothing is wholly good, or wholly bad, the middle of the road isn't a terrible place to be. Sometimes you need a little darkness with your light, whatever it is, moderation isn't bad. Not in general, anyway. Sometimes, for some people, though, it doesn't work out. By some …
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